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　　 最近关于郑秀文的传闻很多，多是因为身体状况亮了红灯不得不暂停《长恨歌》的拍摄。在香港见到郑秀文的时候，她的精神不错，我们从唱歌、演戏一路说到在这个圈子里的困惑和爱情，以及几个与她有过或多或少关联的男人。
　　
　　
　　　　记者：上一年除了演唱会之外，你在音乐上都没有什么动作？
　　
　　
　　　　郑秀文：老实说那是一个音乐事业上很长的空档期。我16岁的时候选择走上唱歌这条路，当时信心满满地以为只要唱得好就可以红起来，但是渐渐地这个想法便有了改变，因为自己既不是偶像、也很少有机遇，所以不停地转型。我在每个不同的阶段都需要做不同的事情来充实自己，上一年基本上都以拍戏为主了，也是感觉在歌唱这方面想不出怎样来突破。
　　
　　
　　　　记者：但是你也做过一些尝试。
　　
　　
　　　　郑秀文：有一段时间对唱歌失去信心，我就偏偏挑一些好难唱的歌，我问自己有没有搞错？做不好还要选这种歌来唱？当时，真的是好惊讶，我觉得自己是在死撑！但是很微妙，我忽然扭转了这个想法，冲破心理关口。
　　
　　
　　　　记者：自己可以调节得这么好，该让人羡慕才对！
　　
　　
　　　　郑秀文：我总是觉得自己输不起，那么辛苦熬了好多年才能出头，现在回头看过去，真是冰火两重天。不出名的时候所有人都踩在你头上，在人家的口水下面根本是一钱不值的，每一个人看你不顺眼都可以骂得很厉害，何况这个圈子这么复杂，抓不住的东西很容易就没有了。如果说羡慕，也只有王菲一个，她结过婚又离婚，有孩子，还有男朋友，照样可以做偶像，很少人有这个条件啊。
　　
　　
　　　　记者：其实演戏也不错啊，演戏也影响了你的生活？
　　
　　
　　　　郑秀文：最开始演戏我不知道挑剧本，都是导演在挑我，其实他们也根本不知道我是不是会演戏，在那个过程里我每天的情绪都是起伏不定，担心、焦虑，各种情绪都有，我有时候也会跟助手或者朋友说我快要崩溃了。有时候拍完一场大哭的戏，我还会继续哭下去，好像分不清现实世界和演戏的世界，仿佛变成了另外一个人。
　　
　　
　　　　记者：很多人说你在拍《长恨歌》的时候入戏太深，才导致身体发生问题。
　　
　　
　　　　郑秀文：对我来说这是很特别的一个选择，之前我拍过那么多电影都是很文艺片的，《长恨歌》对我来说挑战太大了。有时候是这样的，你越想做好一件事，就越不容易做好。我也很想做到最好，所以给自己的压力也很大，就会变得很压抑，但是身体并不是太大的问题，休养过后已经没问题了！
　　
　　
　　　　记者：不觉得你是一个很压抑的人？或许以前是，现在不是了吧？
　　
　　
　　　　郑秀文：我觉得自己是一个不太容易被了解的人，需要很长的时间。
　　
　　
　　　　记者：在这种环境里，其实每个人的压力都很大。
　　
　　
　　　　郑秀文：做每一个决定的时候，并不是因为我想这样做，而是这个环境迫使你不得不这样做。我想摆脱，我希望做一个忠于自己的人，我的每一个决定都是忠于自己去做的。我不希望没有遇到合适的人选，别人就逼我结婚，如果我要结婚，也是因为我找到了我爱的人，是很自然的一件事，不是逼出来的。如果我结婚，婚姻不快乐，离婚会比较快乐，我会离婚，但是离婚又不行，因为是公众人物，别人会谈论你，拿你开玩笑，这个我又是承受不起的。
　　
　　
　　　　记者：眼下有结婚的打算吗？
　　
　　
　　　　郑秀文：我跟身边的朋友谈论过结婚的可能性，但是我很担心会影响事业，他们说不会啊，工作是要用一辈子的时间来规划的。我就会把结婚生子的时间定在5年之内，还希望那时候不要变胖。

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

如果有天没bird鸟，油田变作桑田也招它不来

o～god……pls call my bird……

o^my bird,my god.

鼾声让偶清醒，鸟叫放心睡去。

昨下午茶的时候，接连听到背景音乐两首歌。

可以肯定的是，我肯定听过它们，在很久以前。应该不止听过，不然在听到又想不起来的时候，我不会那么心虚。

T: How do you feel these days?
S: There isn't much change. Since <ER>, I'm in resting mode, and life is really relaxing.

T: Is it because you had grown up and no longer as passionate?
S: Of course! Sometimes, looking back at the time when I entered showbiz at 16 years old, and the outstanding image, at that time, I kept thinking that since I am already in showbiz, I must not lag behind too much and everything must have novelty so that I will get results. In fact, the feel of the style and songs at that time gave audiences a fantasy. As I grew up, my objective on buying clothes changed. Last time, when I bought clothes, I would consider whether I could wear it during performances or it was outstanding enough. Now, I only consider whether I like it or whether it suits me, and slowly, it became my own trend or fashion sense.

T: Many people felt that Sammi is tough externally but gentle internally. Do you agree?
S: Possibly! It's even more obvious now!

T: What do you think about feelings?
S: Last time, I believed in love at first sight. Now, I prefer a long-lasting relationship and believe slowly that feelings can develop to become love relationship.

T: Besides love relationship, there are other types of love too!
S: Of course, at this moment, my love relationship is not really smooth. I understand that it is difficult to have a perfect life. Besides, at this moment, my family and friends already gave me lots of love. So, at this moment, it is fine without love relationship. However, I am just a normal person, have emotions, and still need love relationship. But, I have to meet the right person first! Outsiders like to predict my love life. I tell you, I may even be dating now but it is just that I didn't tell it out! At this instant, audiences' knowledge of Sammi Cheng is that Sammi Cheng is not dating, but I don't want to emphasize too much on this!

T: Do you have a sudden urge to be a mother?
S: All along, I am afraid to make a promise for everything, even a contract. I will not sign it until the last minute. This is my character. Having a child is a whole lifetime of promise, to myself and to the child. I love children, it is probably what I want for love after the age of 30. But this does not mean the kind of love between a man and a woman, but it is the promise of love of a child.

T: Becoming mother... when will it be then?
S: Ha! There is no planning, it can be anytime. Last time, it used to be when everything does not affect my career. Now, only have to think for myself because things are not the same anymore. Felt that my own happiness is the most important more and more these days. It is best to live comfortably.

T: So, what's your opinion on those rumor-mongers?
S: You mean those who said my health is bad, depressed?

T: Yes!
S: I will not be angry with them for spreading this rumor, but, I can't laugh either. Those who didn't know everything, please don't continue to write anymore, OK? Even when they wrote that I had died, I could even ignore it. In the future, what's left that I can't face? This is how I will face future news.

T: It seems that there isn't anything that could anger you anymore.
S: Cheung Suk Ping told me an example; eating. Either I don't eat or eat 120%. The difference is huge. It's like how I view things, there is no midpoint. People who love me will love me very much, those who don't, will not, no matter what. And, I do not want to change myself in order to please others. Of course, I do hope that everyone will like me, but I do not want to do that. I can still remember that when I was filming <ER>, I had chatted with Director Kwan and I told him that I want to be a flexible person. But, he said don't and told me just be myself.

T: So did he enlighten you a little?
S: I think so! Initially, I wasn't thinking to please others, but just want myself to be more flexible, but, even being flexible may not please others! Contrarily, people might even think I am fake.

T: How would you wish men to view you?
S: Frankly speaking, normal men admire my capabilities in work, but most of them will not choose me as their girlfriend. They prefer those gentle, vulnerable girls!

T: Let's talk about work. Do you find any benefits from it?
S: I guess it trained my determination. I experienced a lot while fimling movies and after that, there are still many obstacles. For example, after filming <ER>, I had to lose weight. From this, I had to learn to accept the good and bad. In movies, I learnt how to free myself and found out that I had progressed.

T: Are there any roles you would like to portray?
S: Basically, there are many. Because I don't like some homosexual films that are ambiguous; want to film it but dare not do it, making the whole show doubtful. If they want to film it, they should make it complete. Someone once asked me whether I would like to be TB or TBG. Both are OK for me, but I decide after reading the script. It does not have to be a big production, and I accept even weird types.

T: So how about your singing career?
S: At the earliest, it will be at the end of year. I guess I will still release album, but I haven't decided when. If I feel like it suddenly, then I will do it. From movies that I film, I will insist on using my own songs. So, fans can still listen to my songs from the movie. But, of course, they want me to release an album soon. Those who really love me, will surely wait for me.